When a person loves it may look as if they are crazy. Bending ass backwards, taking shit, and doing things out of the ordinary. Things like this is what makes love confusing, great, bananas, heartbreaking, and enjoyable. Some ppl love the struggle of love. Love has so many extremes that its hard to see that a person is in it. 2 ppl may always be at each others throat, but thats a reflection of their love. YOU may not understand it, but everyone is unique in their own right. What makes YOU the official definition dictator of words? Through my hardships of life I have come to understand that it's only my definition of what I believe that matters. Everyone is entitled to their opinion, however you have to be able to hold your own and develop YOUR definition of love, self, know what it does to you and determine who you will allow to experience the love that you give out to the world. Everyone is carving out their own existence. Everyone has their personal view of the world. Your love will not be compatible will everyone. This is something that we all must learn to except. Understanding is what makes ppl grow, and learn. The lack of understanding only allows for ignorance to bloom in the hearts of ppl who don't want to know.
My personal definition of love is:
Caring about a person, wanting the best for them, and TRULY understanding the connection you share with that person. Not wishing harm unto them, and giving the level of commitment that is needed to maintain the relationship with that person.
This isnt a definition for ppl who are in bf/gf relationships, but any relationship. I can say that I love my friends, and I care about their well being. I want great things for them now, and in the future. I want them to prevail over the struggles of life and become a better person from it. To realize their true potential is an understatement. However lol, this isn't about my definition of love rather the understandings of love and how ppl view it. Love is a variable; it's always changing because its something thats not confined to dimensions. It's a trait that all living things share, however expressed in manners in which the person or creature can only understand. THAT is what makes love everlasting and changing.
Throughout my journey in life I can honestly say I found love 1 time. Other times I thought I was in love until I saw the difference in how hard I went for the other person. During my 21 yrs of living I have only been in love once. I have loved multiple women, but I have been in love 1 time. Still I think about the situation that I'm in and wonder "am I playing the role I'm supposed to?" "Is this how the story supposed to play out?" I can't deny how I felt before and how I feel now. Shit is still the same to me. I just put space between my emotions and tapping into them. Somewhere down the line life has in store for me the woman that I know that I'm supposed to be with. Until then i will continue to play the role that was given to me. Something has to give. In the mean time I will continue to be as productive as possible. I hope that everyone that reads this note takes something from it. I hope that this is food for your thoughts. What I speak isn't always correct in everyone's eyes and I want YOU to challenge me on my thoughts and opinions. I write because I have alot to say and I want what I keep in the back of my head to be heard. You are a great person. Wake up everyday and say that. Know that whatever situation you are in will change. Ppl make mistakes, but thats a part of being human. I slacked off for 7yrs. It's about time that I get up and become the man that I need to be. Not just for myself, but those I care about, and the future that I have decided I want to experience for myself.
