Saturday, February 8, 2014

Where is your spark?

Passion - any powerful or compelling emotion or feeling, as love or hate (http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/passion?s=t)

It's been a while since I've been driven by passion. Seeing that passion is a powerful feeling my passion leaks out in conversations. Emotionally, I can be all over the place. If I really like something, you will know, trust me lol. But, I keep my emotions under wraps for the fact that they can make one impulsive and behave in a manner that's out of character. No one ever wants to act out of character.

While on the road to recovering my emotional wounds I felt empty. When I get inspired its very quite, almost like it's a secret now. I feel that talking about what you do and being happy about it is the same as being boastful or cocky. No one ever discussed what do to when you like what you do and you are happy about it. No one said the world would feel threatened and turn away from you. You would want to think that others want to hear the positives that are going on around them. And, it's not to say that people do not want to hear it. Maybe, some people do not know how to celebrate anything positive...

Culturally, I know who I am, where I come from and I used to know where I was going. I know what the end of the road looks like. I know where I want to be and I know what I want to overcome to get there. And just like that, I threw my reason for living on the objectives of something else. Not one time have I mentioned what I wanted. There's not too much I've ever wanted for myself. I'm used to simplicity. Just let me do as I please and I'm fine.

I used to love talking. One of my favorite things was sitting around and dissecting a topic. These days I spend time talking to myself. Why? Because what a new question came about: what happens when passion meets reality? What happens when you have all the energy in the world, yet you lack the resources? What becomes of that situation? Do you let the fire die out? Do you simply give up? Please, do tell what happens when passion meets reality?

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